I get to the gym. I am super amped because not only did I not want to go but I definitely didn’t want to go after work. But the idea of a summer body is plastered in my head, so I go to the gym work out hard and kill it. I am so pleased with myself I feel like I can conquer anything LOL I walk out to start my car and head to the nearby grocery store to make a salad, but my car will not turn on. I breathe and re attempt to start my car to no avail. I look under the hood wiggle the battery, nothing. I then proceed to McDonalds to get a coke maybe the battery is just corroded. Nothing. I reluctantly ask a stranger does he have jumper cables as well as the gym –surprise surprise no one has any. I call my one of my RODs (“Ride Or Dies) and ask her to come to jump my car, she says she is on her way but doesn’t know how to hook up the cables properly. This leads me to call my other sister (another ROD) and my brother in law so he can properly attach the cables. They arrive but we couldn’t get to my car or even determine the owners of the cars next to mine. We have no choice but to just sit and wait. Finally, someone leaves the gym and we hook up the cars and my car still doesn’t start! I call AAA for a tow and to sign up for the service because I wasn’t a member. So here we are having family time in the parking lot. Both my sisters, brother in law, and now my auntie that just happened to be working out is here and they all want to stay. The only thing I could think of is if I had a spouse, a babe, a companion, a boo a something my entire family wouldn’t be held hostage because my car wouldn’t start. I know that I am not an inconvenience, but I can’t help but feel that way when I am 35 and the only people I have to call is my sisters. In that moment I began to kind of fall apart and cry in the parking lot. My sister had to get someone to come stay with my baby niece, so she could be there for me, my auntie husband was face timing her wondering where she is, and my sister and brother in law were on their way to dinner. Moments and scenarios like this happen in life, but being when you’re single simple mishaps can really make you feel alone. AAA said it will be approximately an hour which turns into 2 hours when the tow truck arrives low and behold it wasn’t a tow truck! It was the wrong type of truck so an additional hour of wait time was added. I can’t make this up, this is just a normal Thursday on the ‘Ericka Show’. I left the gym at 6:30PM got home at 10:30PM I was spent I couldn’t wait for my shower and bed.
Many people assume that the worst part of being single is the absence of regular sex. Don’t get it twisted that is also difficult because I am breathing passionate vibrant woman. The truth is as women we can always have sex, it may not be with an individual we crave yet if a woman really wants to have sex there is someone available to her, always. We live in times where relationship status options are no longer just single or taken its also now incudes “it’s complicated”. What does that even mean? It means you’re having sex, you have feelings, you honestly don’t want that person with anyone else, but you’re NOT committed. Theoretically I get it but logically especially when I say it out loud, it doesn’t make any sense. At this point in my life I don’t want to willing sign up for anything unhealthy and toxic. I was never a person that required a man, I wasn’t against it, but it wasn’t imperative or my life goal. When I lost my grandmother that was the first time I thought to myself maybe this would be better if I had a companion. Shortly after that I lost my mother and that’s when I thought I can’t make it thru another traumatic event alone. It was extremely difficult to be honest with myself and admit I don’t want to be alone. No one wants to be alone but when you take care of yourself I feel like it’s expected to be the spokeswoman for the song I-N-D-E-P-E-N-DT happily. Well Mama is tired! Good sex is temporary, even mind-blowing sex is temporary I need someone to wait with me for AAA and console me after a long day.